It's finally happened...we knew it was bound to happen...eventually.
The boy has found my blog. Well, technically, he has found out the title to my blog. Which means, shortly, he will be reading my blog (until his eyes cross from the utter boredom of it all and he wanders away). Luckily, for me, he was unable to actually Google my blog at the time. Perhaps he was distracted by someone until it was time for him to leave for an appointment...
At any rate, he's gone - for now. But he'll be back eventually. Because he is curious about whether or not he makes a regular appearance here. So, here's the deal. He doesn't. That's our story and we are sticking to it.
The boy is actually quite the contributor at a very successful sports blog-type place on his own. I've read his stuff and must say I'm quite impressed; even though I really don't understand the content about the game, I am able to appreciate his ability to research his topics and express his thoughts and opinions so clearly. I, of course, take full credit for that. Since he's mine, I'm allowed to do that, you know.
I, of course, have been blogging here fairly regularly (I use that term quite loosely since lately, it's been few and far between) for quite some time now. Anonymously. And have come to appreciate having this space to share my thoughts and opinions. But more than that, I have come to appreciate and value the friendships that have been borne from this humble space.
He can't understand why I don't want to "share" my writings with him. It's not that I don't want to share. It's more along the lines of this is MY space. And, there is a fair share of embarrassment. And there is another fair share of "I really don't want people I know to see this" because, from the beginning, I have kept a sharp line between In Real Life and my online life. Not because I'm being ugly or hateful about the people in my Real Life - but because I don't want to have to censor myself.
If I have to worry about censoring (even more than I already do) then there isn't much point to doing this, in my opinion. Which is why I have this irrational fear (as if it will ever happen) that one of these days one of my posts might go "viral" - because, God forbid, should that happen then things would have to change.
So, my dear son, here's the deal - if you are reading this (and I'm fairly certain you will be); know this...it's MY space. And I want to keep it anonymous...so no sharing with your friends or anyone we know. If you want to stop by, on occasion, feel free. But, you must realize, that you may occasionally make an appearance here - mainly because I love you to the ends of the earth and back; because I am SO proud of you and your accomplishments to date; and because occasionally you say or do something that makes me laugh so hard, that I can't help sharing.
And if you ARE going to be stopping by here to see what I'm up to - feel free to comment, if you desire. But remember, it's anonymous, so choose your "handle" wisely.
And, by the way? I love you.