April 13, 2018

Tomorrow isn't a given...

I've been trying to post this for the past week - but it has just been too hard and I'm still on the fence as to whether I will post or not.

Last week, the world lost a wonderful person.  One who loved deeply and laughed loudly.  A beautiful soul that was loved by all who met her was lost...to suicide.

Even now, it doesn't seem possible.

She and I had lost touch over the years for various reasons.  And that makes this so much more difficult.

I had always thought there would be time to mend the broken fence; there wasn't.  I always knew that we would reconnect at some point - because how could we not - we were soul sisters; now we never will.  I always knew the day would come that would find us sitting at the table again with a glass of wine either laughing hysterically or in the throes of a deep conversation; that will never happen.  I knew that we would celebrate at our children's weddings; now we won't.  I knew we would revel in our grandchildren; now we can't. 

I thought she knew that I would always be there when she needed me; apparently, she didn't.  And I will always wonder...WHY?

I am beyond devastated.

Learn from me...mend those fences now because as the old adage goes, tomorrow isn't promised.  And. as it usually is with adages; it's true.

Please, send up prayers for the three beautiful children she's left behind...they are going to need them.  And while you are at it; say a couple for me.

The service is next week and then this will all be all too real; and I don't know if I can handle it.

Because I am still having a hard time believing that she isn't out there in the world.


  1. Oh, I am so sorry to hear this. I wish she could have reached out and found a different solution. And I'm sending you my love and prayers for the children. :-(

  2. I'm so sorry about your friend. :-(

  3. I will be praying for you. I am so sorry.

  4. I am so sorry. I just found you and feel so bad that this has happened to your friend.

  5. This is so very sad. I apologize for being so late in reading it. I am thinking of you. Sorry that this happened. Suicide is so difficult.

  6. My heart aches for you. This thing we call life is so very fleeting, something which is easy to forget. I will keep you in my prayers, as well as your friend and her family.

  7. I missed this when you posted it. Sometimes you just don't know when someone is struggling, even if it is someone you DO happen to be in touch with.

  8. I know this is an old post but I am so sorry.