June 6, 2012

That's it. I'm DONE.

At this point, I figure our best bet is to just walk away and live in Hubby's truck.

Except we wouldn't get very far since, apparently, the transmission died today.

Immediately after I had to have the brakes done on my car - to the tune of $400.  $400 that we don't have, mind you.  And when I say, "had to have" I MEAN "had to have" as there is no real mass transit system here.  So it was either new brakes and having a way to work or no brakes and causing mayhem and possible death.

The cost of replacing the transmission?  Definitely more than the truck is worth.  Most likely more than the truck, my car and Man-Child's car is worth.

This news was given to me just as I had reached the sorry conclusion that there is no way I can attend the wedding of my oldest and dearest friend's son back home in July.  I have held on to that invitation in hopes of a miracle happening.  A miracle that is obviously never going to make an appearance.

Coming to that conclusion was heartbreaking enough.  Now this.

I know I should be grateful for what we do have.....each other.  Our (relatively) good health.  My job.  And on and on and on.

But to be honest?  It's hard to remain grateful when (seemingly) day after day you are struck with something else.

EVERY.  DAMN.  DAY.

For over two years now, it seems like every day it's something else.  I've tried being grateful.  I've tried being cheerful.  I've tried everything I can possibly think of and still it doesn't stop.

So that's it.  I'm done.

And when "they" ask - just be sure to tell them that it was the f*&#ing transmission that sent me over the edge.

In the meantime, I'll just sit over here and wait for that piano to fall on my head......I mean come on, after everything else, that is what is bound to happen next....right?

11 comments:

  1. Oh, poor Gigi! That sucks.

    And I understand - I really do. I'm having a similar day here.

    I hope things start to look up soon...for both of us! <3

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  2. Shite, Gigi... you poor thing! I guess someone missed the memo that you aren't supposed to kick someone when they're down. Bless your heart!

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  3. What does that mean, you're done? I just cannot figure out what I would do in a similar situation. So I am down on my knees praying that you will get some relief. This does suck, Gigi. You don't deserve it...

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  4. When it rains it pours and just when you think you can't take one. more. thing. here it comes with it's party dress on and a couple of friends. I'm not gonna tell you to keep your chin up because you'll probably run into something with your chin in the air and then who knows what will happen. Just know,I'm drinking wine and swearing at the universe for you.

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  5. Can I just say ditto to what Carol just said. Because quite honestly, that is the best.comment.ever. And I really mean EVER. I'm sorry Gigi. I'll bring another bottle to Carol's party and join her in the pity party.

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  6. My breaks and I are raising a toast to you and your breaks at this pity party. I dumped the same amount of money into mine the other day and when I went back to the shop with a question about break fluid, the mechanic laughed at me. Right in my face. I haven't been laughed at like that since high school. Guess what? It still sucks. Maybe we can redirect that piano...

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  7. Oh sweetie I'm sorry. Sending hugs and virtual wine:)

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  8. You do realise you cannot be 'done'until we say you are 'done'!

    Your audience has spoken!

    Be sure to kick that piano's butt when it shows up!

    Ya see, I too am plagued by deaths and illness in the family, health tragedies of ever kind, expensive car repairs and house repairs, all whilst living on a shoe string that is pretty damned short. But I have not yet given up ... although I've wanted to on many occasions ... as I still believe (rightly or wrongly) that there is still a pin-point of light at the end of my tunnel.

    I'm sure there is at the end of yours too!

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  9. That sucks SO much. I just wandered over here from The Bloggess and am so sorry everything seems to be turning crappy at once. I hope your luck changes soon!

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  10. Gigi, Im not gonna tell you to be grateful, cause I HATE when people tell me that... Its usually the people who have everything they want, and whose lives are right as rain - that dish that little turd at you...."be grateful for what you have" (as they drive away in their nice spanking new cars to their wonderful homes on the hill, far far away from the little hovel you so desperately want to burn to the ground....oh, shit, Im sorry, I made this about me. Hang in there...there is only so far down you can go before you HAVE to look up.....

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  11. Sorry girl. Sometimes things happen, and it isn't wasy to understand why. Hang in there.

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